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Ron's optimal journey journal

Discussion in 'My Optimal Journal' started by Ronald Waters, Mar 14, 2019.

  1. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    I have likely been on this path for some time but today was monumental. Not only was I working on an e mail to my wife explaining how I am letting go and setting her free, but she calls me on the phone ( can't even say when the last time was) wants me to come over the house because water got in on the lower level carpet (haven't been there in over 3 months) . So I get the opportunity to tell her in person. If she believes she needs a divorce I am offering to let it happen. I vowed to keep it out of the courts and settle it peaceably. It may cost me an extra 30 or 40 thousand to give here whatever she needs but I'm not willing to put a price tag on all the exposure to bad energy that an ugly divorce could bring into my world. I told her that I still care and that I don't want her to carry any resentment away from the situation, and told her that I am on a different path and won't be able to take any with me either
    We have to meet now to agree on financial a settlement but i will be watching closely to see what impact, if any, this approach has on me, and on my wife.

    My wife is getting to much exposure to blue light and other nnEMF. She is taking anti depressant medication, and spends too much time on social media. This shift broke our ability to communicate.
    I will be watching to see if my new perspective has any impact.
  2. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    I have been watching the CT talk video that Jack did with Jeremy and I had an interesting thought today.
    I was born with a cataract obstructing light from entering my left eye and that made me wonder if that causes me to struggle to get enough sunlight?
    Since it was from birth everything physical adapted and I essentially have not physical limitations because of it, But I am curious now to know if this is why I have chosen to work outside all day? If it is why I have to go find more sunshine in the winter? Or would I still feel the same getting light with 2 eyes?
    Tomorrow I can begin the search for answers..
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  3. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    I think a big part of why I am doing much better this spring than I have in the past. Winter and spring would bring on brain fog, chemical sensitivities, irritability, and digestion issues.
    When I realized that I need to adjust my diet to the environment I am in I have been feeling much stronger.
    In the past I would drink green fruit smoothies right through the winter just like when I am in Latin America. In the winter months this would cause my deterium level to jump and it would spin off all kinds of side effects. I would go to Latin America for a couple of weeks and feel much better, but then I would come home and continue eating the same diet, except minus most of the fish and seafood that I would be eating in the tropics.
    This winter, when in iowa, I have stuck to a high fat, high protein diet. My stables are ghee, sardines, salmon, beef liver, and avocado for my tropical food fix.
    When summer arrives in iowa I can go outside and work in the heat and eat all the tropical fruit I want to, I just have to make sure that the weather feels like the tropics.
    I am toying with the idea of moving to Colombia for 6 to see what effect the change in environment can really have on me.
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  4. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    Just listening to the March webinar about intuitive touch. In the past it would have struck me as ironic that I finally joined the forum at essentially the same time that Jack is talking about having this "awakening". I feel like I have been developing a similar experience in my own life. My own experience has been opened up or driven by the pursuit of integrity. In my past I was able and willing to find explanations for compromising my integrity.. Little stuff like picking up a dollar bill or a hat that someone lost and explaining to myself that if I don't pick it up then someone else will. What I have discovered in my pursuit of integrity, ( not can i justify it but is it the right thing to do?) is that it was blocking my intuition, blocking my ability to touch others and the world around me.
    As I shift away from justifying my behavior and trying to control my environment I am constantly amazed by the way things now happen.
    I got a jury summons today, which in the past I would have found a way to get out of because I would have believed that I don't have time for such things. But now that idea is shot down by my integrity asking if that is the right thing to do? I went online filled out the application and learned that I am not eligible to serve because I am living outside the county. Problem solved, Integrity intact.
    But it doesn't end there, I feel that a lot of my interactions with people are very different. I am still working to understand my intuition and to learn how to explain it to others. The best I can do for now is to say that the things that used to be important to me no longer are, I could possibly explain best by saying that I have had a personal pole reversal. What used to be up is now down and what used to be down is now up.
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  5. Inger

    Inger Silver

    Awesome Ronald :) :) it is so magic to realize such a switch is even possible, at least it feels pretty magic to me :)
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  6. Jack Kruse

    Jack Kruse Administrator

    Here is chapter two to the webinar.

    It is the springtime of my loving on my tribe.
    The second season I am to know in my life
    My tribe are the sunlight in my current growing
    So little warmth I've felt before as "old Uncle Jack"
    It isn't hard to feel me glowing when you read the passion dripping in my words these days.
    I watched my fire that grew so low.........I decided to reject living to survive for the ability to thrive.
    Technology is killing us. I could care less if you believe it. I know it and so does my tribe. What are the implications of this new idea?
    I've been deeply inspired by my desires to change this March. This was reflected in my March 2019 webinar. Here is a new blog to further those thoughts. I want to show you it is possible to dance above the surface of the world. I want to show you it is OK to let your thoughts lift you into creativity that is not hampered by anyone's opinion of you or your life. Divergent thinking is almost always seen as a gift rather than an acquired and developed skill. But this is far from the truth: divergent thinking is a distinct form of higher-order thinking that can be taught to all ages of the students of life I call Black Swans. Great 'divergents' have wild and untamed reality. This is how they choose to live.
    I've found as a mitochondriac being daring never goes out of style.
  7. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    ABSOLUTAMENTE!!!!! You're right. We are all in this together and we are all interconnected. we all need to lead when possible and follow when necessary. Referring to you as uncle Jack allows me to sit back and wait for your lead. (which you have done very well) I believe your experience with Jeremy (and others) can show us all that we can not guess where our inspiration will come from, but that it is there waiting for our eyes to be opened.
    Do we ,the tribe, need a new familial reference for you. ???
    The family aspect that I feel, and see, here on this forum is amazing. I had no idea when I joined that I would be so inspired to share my life and my energy with a new tribe. Divergent thinking has always been a way of life for me but this is the first that I have really exposed and nurtured it.
    Where is this latest path leading?? Not sure, but my bug out bag is packed and I'm ready to follow my intuition.
  8. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    If asked,, I would say that I finally joined the forum in search of optimal health and a community to support it. I imagined I would be journaling about cold showers and baths, sitting in the green house waiting for summer to arrive, the low carb diet I have been adhering to, and how great I feel. I thought I might be talking about getting out of the city and getting away from the blue light and other nnEMF. Yes all of these things have been part of my journey to get here, and yes I have learned to be very careful of the environment I put myself into
    As I move farther down this path I am realizing that these are only the physical variables that I am adjusting but there is also impact in the emotional and spiritual fields too. Maybe it is a cold shower that improves my intuition, or maybe it is my diet? I'm not really looking for answers because I have realized that they will find me when I am ready for them. If I don't spend my energy searching for answers that are already waiting for me then I can spend my energy entangling with others from which the answers will likely come to me.
    Fell asleep last night with my cell phone by me. The impact was frightening. My mind was racing, no sense of peace, irritable, frustrated, and unfocused. It took a IR sauna and a cold shower after dinner to finally clear my head. Won't make that mistake any time soon.
  9. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    Day 30 I had really hoped to see more changes in my first 30 days, but that doesn't mean I'm disappointed with the changes I've seen I guess it just means haven't been dedicated and focused enough. I imagined myself maybe two stories underground emotionally and I would have to climb the ladder up to daylight. Now I'm starting to believe I was farther down than I realized but it doesn't matter to me anymore the climb back to the surface is very rewarding, and I'm simply relishing in the journey.
    even in the last month my interactions with other people have changed. I'm still waiting to ask someone if others see this change or if it's still only something I see. I feel an incredible energy or connection with every one of those interactions, something emotional that I kept locked out before, or something I was afraid to feel. Now I feel so emotionally connected with the world around me,
  10. drezy

    drezy Gold

    If you're in Iowa. Keep at it and re-evaluate between Jun-Aug if you're getting sun as part of your routine. I couldn't find an average UV per month chart for any Iowa locations, but those months will give you the fairest evaluation to the "Is it just me or this environment?" question at that latitude.
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  11. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    Thanks for the encouragement drezy. I plan to keep going because I am almost certain that summer will improve everything, but I will be curious to see how it plays out. I spent 6 weeks this past winter down south in the sunshine. 2 places make me feel better, elevation and closer to the equator makes it better, and the ocean. I guess it makes sense when I think about Light, Water, and Magnetism. That's actually what got me started on this journey. I spent 2 weeks in Novembber about 6 to 8 degrees north in Colombia and Panama, then 2 weeks in Mexico swimming in the pacific, then 2 weeks on Jamuary in Puero Rico and Florida. My diet had already been mostly seafood, so I just cut out the high deuterium tropical fruit and at least my mind has stayed clear and my emotional outlook mostly positive.
    In the past I would find winter to be discouraging and depressing, so I am definitely feeling better. Lots of people suffer the same symptoms, or worse, but most chose to medicate. Fighting for my own health and sanity seems to have cost me my marriage, my wife thinks nnEMF are harmless, and she takes medication for depression, which is ok because 50 million other people do it.
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  12. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    April 1,
    We had full sun today but still only 45 degrees so I spent an hour in the greenhouse where I can strip down and get hot. It seems to really energize me.
    I had 3 oysters for a dinner appetizer and it makes me feel like I need to live much closer to the ocean, and probably to the equator too.
    I've been doing C/T about 3-4 times per week but can only tolerate 15 minutes in 50 degree water. It seems to eliminate food cravings, or else I'm just past most of that, and I sleep like I am dead. I get some morning sun when available and cover up and wear blue blockers after dark. It has convinced me that light has more impact on my health and mental state than all the other variables combined.
    I am motivated to organize some black swan comping and travel events so that other people can experience the impact of changing their environment. I have no idea what it should look like? Places with no cell signal? Parks like Big Bend, Texas? I will have to visit this idea later.
    overall March went well and the perseverance that I needed to keep going has given me hope that April can be even better!!!
    Should my bed be grounded?
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  13. caroline

    caroline Moderator

    I love your journal Ronald.......an awakening!
  14. Amber Ament

    Amber Ament New Member

    You're doing much better than me! I can't handle it, maybe because it's so warm here? Queensland Australia (yes I shouldn't be on computer right now, getting off after this). All I can manage is turning on shower cold, I wet my arms and legs, and it's soooooooooooooo hard doing belly & back and I chicken out mostly...BUT after a warm shower I turn back to cold and do a dance real quick under it, cup water in my hands 4times and splash my face, haha. No idea of the temp but I'm sure it's warmer than 10 degrees Celsius! I am such a wuss. Have a good one! :)
  15. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    Hey Amber I have to admit that I struggle with the cold but the response i get from it motivates me to push on. I decided I need to get a compression shirt, maybe pants too, to see if I can tolerate the cold any longer. I only lasted 10 minutes tonight but the air and water temp were both about 9 - 10 Celsius.
    The biggest stumbling block for me is not getting good sleep. If I don't sleep well it makes everything more difficult, and the cold, even in the shower, helps me sleep better.
    If you have a way to try it, I find the cold water bath in the mid day sun much more enjoyable. I don't know if it is just the sunshine?
    Or try using ice packs, frozen vegetables, or any thing else you can find that is cold.. Anything to make your skin turn pink.

    Small steps in a consistent direction will to you to places you have never been.

    Keep me posted. :zzz: Time for me to get off the computer and find optimal sleep.
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  16. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    i love to go hiking, and nothing is more inspiring than seeing the destination ahead of you.. Sometimes you can't see the destination until you are almost upon it but other times you can see a peak before you even get started. It reminds me of a hike last summer, a friend and I went off grid hiking in the Pike National forest, we had looked at a topo map before heading out as there was going to be lots of ups and downs. Half the day went by without seeing the peak, then maybe every hour we would get a glimpse of it, then even as we were making the final ascent it was hard to determine the peak. Finally we arrived and the struggle of the journey was instantly forgotten.
    I feel like I have gotten glimpses of the peak I am climbing on this mountain to optimal emotional and physical health. I can't tell how long it will take to the summit but I am certain that it will be worth the journey. As I read the journeys of others on this forum I am encouraged and inspired to know that I am not out here in this wilderness alone. I thank God for the encouragement and inspiration that we are able to share among ourselves, as part of that encouragement I have been trying to find a way that we, as like minded people, could find connection outside of the digital world. Anyway, I was down at my farm/cabin in Missouri for the weekend and thought I should find a way to share this with more people.

    What would a Black Swan retreat look like?

    could I offer a place for others to transition out of the city and find a new home / better environment?

    I will post some pics and look to see if there are any threads along this line. In the mean time I will continue climbing towards optimal health.
    onward and upward my people
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  17. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    My weekend spiritual journey was based on teaching by Christopher Heuertz and contemplative prayer. It's not about asking for what I need or want but about finding silence, solitude, and stillness so that what I need can find me.
    Here's a picture of one of the things that found me over the weekend.

    Attached Files:

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  18. Ronald Waters

    Ronald Waters New Member

    How is the new me getting comfortable with discomfort?

    Normally I would spend my time working so that I would have plenty of resources to entertain any option that I wanted to, but in reality doing very little more than cowering in the perceived comfort of many options. I am no longer content to be a' fly on the wall' of my own existence. It is time to buzz around and experience life in full color. What does this look like for me?? Well there is being in a bad neighborhood after dark uncomfortable, but then there is being in country where you don't know the language uncomfortable. I will fly to Germany for 1 week, at the end of which I hope to find Munich and see Jack at Flowfest2019. That will be like a cold shower but then for the cold bath I am flying to Russia for 1 week of independent travel.

    How can i not just survive this test but actually thrive in the face of discomfort?
    How much impact can quantum entanglement pose without a common language?
    How quickly can CT adjust my circadian clock in a 8 hour time change?
    Will I feel the effects of nnEMF in the big cities?
    These and many other questions will be the subjects that I will post in future blogs

    I notice a big difference in my sleep with too much exposure to A.L.A.N.
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  19. Inger

    Inger Silver

    Ron, great stuff :) :)
    I did not have any much Jetlag as I went to USA to and back to the Kruse Cruise
    But I let the sunrise on my body next morning.. it must have helped :)
    And read Jacks blog; Jetlag RX
    I will make sure you find Munich and the Flowfest ;) :)
    I am so lucky to have you as my guest! Be prepaired for oyster-feast :) :) :)
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  20. caroline

    caroline Moderator

    Can't wait to read more .......

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