1. Registering for the Forum

    We require a human profile pic upon registration on this forum.

    After registration is submitted, you will receive a confirmation email, which should contain a link to confirm your intent to register for the forum. At this point, you will not yet be registered on the forum.

    Our Support staff will manually approve your account within 24 hours, and you will get a notification. This is to prevent the many spam account signups which we receive on a daily basis.

    If you have any problems completing this registration, please email support@jackkruse.com and we will assist you.

RMW's Journal

Discussion in 'My Optimal Journal' started by RMW, Sep 23, 2019.

  1. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Added a couple minutes as a little reminder to not listen to that voice last night: 53.8F for 29 mins. I'm adding more ice blocks everyday but temperature seems to fluctuate, it is what it is though as long as I keep adding the blocks and upping the time; I'm happy.

    Something mad happened last night though I slept amazing and felt CHARGED this morning.

    Redox has actually improved since I've been back! Something I absolutely thought nigh on impossible but this is the first time ever I've actually put in the work on CT.

    So I'm spending my days filming an hour away form where I live- wouldn't be a problem however I no longer have a car as a result of my choices regarding my recent trip to Tenerife and finances etc. Where I film the ball doesn't get rolling until 10am but there's a guy who works there who conveniently lives in Nottingham (big shout out to the universe for that life-line) so he gives me a lift everyday.

    He still lives a bit of a way away from me though so I have to catch the 6:03am bus to Notts and walk (or run) to a spot near his house for 6:45am.

    Sunrise now is around 7:15am and obviously at this point I've already been exposed to a blue-lit morning and actually unable to get AM sunlight (with the exception of rolling his window down in the car) until I arrive at the venue approx 7:50am. This is not an ideal start to my mornings in regards to my AM dopamine hit. In order to get my CT in before the day gets going I've been getting up at 4:15am to run the bath.

    I didn't actually want to document this as I kinda felt a bit embarrassed given the nature of the reason why we're all on here but this is what it is, I shouldn't care what others think anyway. On my days I'm not filming of course protocol is zero-tech, sun-rise then CT.

    But I have been getting it done. And maybe I'm more comfortable sharing it as my redox has legitimately improved even despite my daily sub-optimal routine... CT is feeling incredible especially after my sleep last night so this morning I set my alarm for 5:15 thinking that I'll experiment with evening CT and having that extra hour daily is probably a wise idea.

    Then I woke up at 4:30am sharp as a fucking razor, redox booming and whilst I held back on the CT, I ran nearly all the way to the guys house who is giving me a lift. Not going to count my chickens just yet but shit... Can I hack it here for the winter based on this!?

    Business is going well... If it continues and grows further then I'll soon be able to get myself a car and make my mornings optimal.

    I'm enjoying making sense of this myself as I was reading Jack's Cold Thermogenesis 3 during CT last night haha saying that when the temperature drops and it then becomes the environmental trigger for our circadian cycles. This would explain why I'm feeling solid and my redox has improved despite missing out on that early sunrise.

    Another thing- I forgot to turn the wi-fi router off before going to bed the other night. I woke up in the morning to find that my mum actually turned it off in the absence of my memory!!! That was a huge deal man- my mum isn't aware of all this shit but she's open minded and so supportive of all my what would appear very strange behavioural habits to her and I was like "fuck! Go on mum". She switches it off regularly now as I'm always in bed before her and sometimes she wants to use the internet for a bit. She's even reported a better nights sleep since I returned from Tenerife and made a point of turning the wi-fi off at night much to her initial skepticism.

    I could never truly appreciate my Mum during the most of my adult low-dopamine years. I didn't ever have the awareness to appreciate her and what she does for me and puts up with haha. The past 2/3 years the better my redox does the more I'm so grateful to have her. She's the best man.

    That brings us to sundown- bath is running. Candles are on the ready and I'm about to read amongst the chaos of an ice bath. Life is good.
    Phosphene and Sean Waters like this.
  2. MITpowered26

    MITpowered26 New Member

    Getting ready to ct face dunk this weekend. It’s happening. Thank you remy.
    RMW and Sean Waters like this.
  3. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Last night: 53F for 30 minutes. Woke up a with less energy than yesterday... What is this!? Then my mum almost sheepishly confesses that she forgot to turn the wi-fi off last night. This actually made me happy as it offered an explanation to why I didn't wake up as on fire as I have been recently BUT more importantly she said it resulted in an awful nights sleep for her! She was up at all hours in the night even went for a coffee at 1am. Now I'm not celebrating the fact that my mum had an awful nights sleep but the reason for her confession was that it seriously affected her... She can now see and her body is clearly becoming more sensitive to the environment. Amazing.

    This morning: 55.9F for 31 mins the ice hadn't properly frozen so the temp wasn't as it should've been. I'm looking to get some kind of trough to get outside as CT is getting quite long now and it's quite a shame to be missing out on being outside for that period of time; especially in the AM.

    I've been having to order more books as reading time has not only gone up through the physical act of reading more during the ice baths given they're getting longer and longer but also because my productivity is being elevated.

    "This is Marketing" by Seth Godin at the moment is doing be proud.
    Phosphene and Sean Waters like this.
  4. MITpowered26

    MITpowered26 New Member

    Another inspiring push found in your journal Remy. I am going to step up my book game too.
    RMW likes this.
  5. 5G Canary

    5G Canary Gold

    Robin I think you got into my head and dream with this...

    I haven’t had pasta in well over a year. When I read this it made me smile. I remembered all the fond memories of my Grandma. She was always making fresh pasta and bread daily for us. Always feeding us...you never bothered saying “no” because your plate would be filled regardless. I had a funny dream last night of her telling me.... “No-a Pasta” you-a need-a make “Bread!” I kept thinking I don’t want bread. I really want pasta! Why does she want me to make “bread?” Then this afternoon I remembered your journal and post about asking for more money. Glad you asked and got more...bread. BTW...It goes well with pasta and wine. Lol!

    Loving your journal and dedication... very inspiring!
    Sean Waters, Phosphene and RMW like this.
  6. RMW

    RMW New Member

    This is actually crazy you know, dreams fascinate the hell out of me and that absolutely sounds like an unconscious effort from your "self 2" organising something you've read that might not of seemed significant to you at the time- but clearly your Grandma (or self 2) sees otherwise.

    Thank you!

    Yeah honestly J, I realise that everything of moderate achievement I've sort of ever accomplished has come as a result of putting in the action from knowledge accumulated from investing in my own learning ie: READING. Something I've massively lost sight of recently- I won't make this mistake ever again. It's documented that Warren Buffett spends 80% of his day either reading or thinking... How mad is that!? Whether that stat is an exaggerated percentage (quite possible) or not I still think it speaks volumes.

    This morning: 52.5F for 32 minutes. Undoubtably the coldest and longest I've ever been for and it was very noticeable. I very nearly went straight to a boiling hot shower afterwards to combat the shivering but didn't listen to that voice. I feel mint.
    Sean Waters, 5G Canary and Phosphene like this.
  7. Phosphene

    Phosphene Gold (finally)

    This gave me my gut laugh this morning! :rofl::rofl:

    Thank you!

    Oh, and Robin I love that you’re feeling mint. Stealing that term.
    Sean Waters likes this.
  8. MITpowered26

    MITpowered26 New Member

    Books. Lots of books. I've got my eye on you ....
    Phosphene and Sean Waters like this.
  9. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Haha I only thieved it from someone else in the first place so steal away!

    I'm only 150 pages deep in this marketing book and already I've completely remapped my entire business strategy. THIS IS WHY I SHOULD'VE NEVER STOPPED READING.

    Last night: 52.7F for 33 mins. So this felt way colder than before- I think the temp got lower as I was in there as I got the reading as the ice had hardly melted making this the most difficult of the lot so far. To be honest this one was the hardest before I even got into the tub. The time is getting long now, I really didn't want that smoke last night. I really didn't want it at all. I'd love to say now, "this is where I really dug deep into the warrior in me and made that ice bath my bitch!" But that really wasn't the case. I got in the tub reluctantly, did the time. Came out fucking freezing.

    Then as I was hunched over my towel in my room, I really was feeling a bit pathetic. Shivering, rocking back and fourth the word for word thought that entered my head was "I really don't enjoy this". Then... A moment of clarity as I awakened to the fact that this is the exact reason WHY I am doing this and if I enjoyed it then the mother fucker isn't cold enough. I think my short-cut demons sort of told myself that this would get easier but it hasn't got any easier at all- in fact I've consciously made the effort to make it more difficult every single day so something is wrong if it is getting easier! I took some solace in this and slept like a log.

    This morning I rose at 5, read for about an hour and a half then took the main man Alfred (family dog) out for our morning sunrise pilgrimage. This is the first morning we've had where there has been frost on the cars and grass (all be it a small amount) but it was noticeably colder. I stroll out in a hoody/blue blockers at first to avoid any blue lighting en route to the golf course where we're free then I unclothe myself to a t-shirt and wow, not cold at all. Actually slightly warm. Even the morning runners were wearing jackets and gloves and I wasn't cold in the slightest.

    After sort of doubting myself last night, it was massively motivating to actually not see BUT FEEL the results of the (3 weeks today) of CT on the coldest morning so far in the lead up to winter but not only that it made me realise the meaning behind all this.
    Does CT get easier if you're making it colder and longer everyday? NO obviously not. But it builds the resilience not only to the environment but in life to deal with what before would've been stressors, now are literally a walk in the park with Alfred.

    That was all the motive I needed to jump back in the tub as soon as I got back so this morning: 55F for 34 mins the ice wasn't frozen properly BUT FUCK THIS WAS THE TOUGHEST YET... AGAIN!! Haha the cold walk I had in the morning must've predisposed me to a tougher ice bath... But that's exactly what I'm here for. Whatever the day, the week, the month or rest of this year throws at me, every single day I'm becoming stronger and more adapted to deal with it.

    This video sends chills down my spine and is a perfect reminder to me of "that place" where you have to dig deep and confront yourself, you can hear Goggin's soul speak at 5:08- recounting his navy seal training, saying fuck you to the suffering. I love that shit, it's what I'm currently aspiring to achieve. Step by step, every single day.

  10. MITpowered26

    MITpowered26 New Member

    Interesting... so you are saying doing my CT will help me be outside in the winter more naked... nice... i like it .
    Phosphene, Sean Waters and RMW like this.
  11. RMW

    RMW New Member

    53F for 35 minutes. There was zero reluctancy upon getting in that tub this morning- was actually quite looking forward to it. Reading time is limited to roughly around the 28-30 minute mark, after that I'm too cold to read and it's just me and the tub. Was a good'un, feel strong.

    Ran out of freezer space for more ice, the water is getting colder as the winter closes in but that might not be good enough, will continue to up the time as normal and find a way of getting it colder.
    Sean Waters likes this.
  12. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Latest amazon order:

    Screenshot 2019-10-15 at 10.36.44.png

    How to teach quantum physics to your dog had to go in the basket haha. I must admit a couple years ago I actually tried to read The Fourth Phase of Water after hearing Jack say it could be understood by a 3rd grader... I got about a quarter of the way through and I understood minuscule amounts, school was always my nemesis (apart from maths weirdly enough) so I'm going to start with these and see where that takes me.
  13. MITpowered26

    MITpowered26 New Member

    You are either on top of the CT or the CT is on top of you... winning @RMW ... awesome bro.
    Sean Waters likes this.
  14. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Cheers, J!

    This morning: 51.6F for 36 mins. At liberty of having zero filming to do this week and so have been able to structure my mornings as per normal and doing CT in the AM. No surprise that my mitochondria have thanked me as a result, which means I need to get a car if I want this to continue as I'm back to my sub-optimal schedule of filming next week and for the foreseeable.

    Edit: NOT for the foreseeable as long as I do something about it.
    Last edited: Oct 16, 2019
  15. RMW

    RMW New Member

    51.3F for 45 minutes. I fucking went for it this morning- there was frost outside, the running tap water was cold and my ice blocks were rock solid frozen so I knew it was gunna be a cold one. My scheduled 37 mins was put on the timer and I had to stop reading early on as I couldn't muster up the cognitive ability to actually comprehend what I was reading due to the cold.

    The whole way through I was thinking that really 37 isn't far off 45 mins. I knew 45 was a milestone as per the protocol but kept playing it down in my head with the "baby steps" thesis to provide me with reassurance that the planned 37 mins was fine. Which it would've been to be honest, but once the timer went off a switch flipped in my head and I just thought fuck it. So an additional 8 minutes went on and a total of 45 mins it was!

    What an unreal milestone, the satisfaction is incomprehensible to other things I've done because nothing has actually required me to go this deep and face up to my soft nature.

    On a side note: "How to Teach Quantum Physics to your Dog" is a banging book so far! A lot has resonated.
  16. Sean Waters

    Sean Waters New Member

    YES, let that Brown Fat cook you up itself... you will get seriously fucking warm, ask your Mom to touch your upper back half hour after, she should tell you it is fucking boiling!
    RMW and Phosphene like this.
  17. Sean Waters

    Sean Waters New Member


    The consistency you are showing is a class act.

    The mental war with yourself is one that I face everyday. Even still, but it has become a small matter each morning as I know I'm getting in. I've even gone below 50 and decided to come back up just above and that is my best temp for gains.

    This weekend I am dropping my run of 68 Ice Baths (wanted to get 102 in a row) to spend an extra night (Friday) in Liverpool. Instead of driving up Saturday morning as I planned... so I could CT then get Sunrise on the drive up.

    It wasn't an option at first. But then I realised... what am I doing this for?...... For a streak, or to enable myself to have enough Redox for times like this when I am needed to socialise with a critically important group of people in my life. Under Blue Light with lots and lots of Tequila and Wine and Gin.

    Do I lose time with them? in order to have an Ice Bath Saturday morning...? or do I break my own pride and go spend time with them?

    It seems obvious now I'm writing it. But, for a moment it wasn't at all.

    Once you start to nail this deep cold consistently, you will see it as a tool and not as something to base your life on.

    Because, there isn't a shadow of doubt about it (in your own mind) your ability to enter into that chamber of shivers and fear, when you need it.
    RMW and Phosphene like this.
  18. Sean Waters

    Sean Waters New Member

    Also, being knowledgeable about a wide variety of things... including the basics of quantum mechanics... gives your brain a Perspective the size of the Earth, instead of the size of Birmingham.

    It aids in how you "see" situations. You can draw back to perspectives you learned from the authors. My writing style has developed purely from the writings of - Becker and Marino, Van Wijk, Lane, Pollack etc.

    The way I talk has taken inspiration from yourself, my family, friends, Jack, my girl in Canada, and all the podcasts and films and books I've read.

    It's more than just understanding Physics, it is about your own growth. It is about you becoming the man you've always wanted to be. That person is just YOU who KNOWS A LOT and is CONFIDENT and can ACT on that knowledge to OBTAIN the LIFE you WANT.
    RMW and Phosphene like this.
  19. Phosphene

    Phosphene Gold (finally)

    RMW likes this.
  20. RMW

    RMW New Member

    Yeah man I hear this; the German girl I met in Tenerife has actually booked flights to come over for 5 days. Which obviously is absolutely mint. However I've already thought about the implications on my lifestyle this might mean. Will going HAM on the CT for those 5 days really be respectful to the fact she's here to spend time with me? Or better yet do I WANT to miss out on spending time with her I should be asking myself.
    Diet? For this 5 days do I just kick it and do "normal people" things like eating out etc.

    She's aware of my (what would be considered by "conventional" standards) to be a strange way of life, what I'm tossing up with in my head right now is:

    1) Well if this actually goes somewhere with this girl she's going to have to accept this is what the crack is, so I should just proceed as I am.
    2) If it does go somewhere, visits are going to be few and far between anyway, just seeing her will bring my dopamine through the roof anyway so do I cut back on my regular lifestyle in order to spend what I would consider (and she would absolutely consider) better quality time with her?
    3) If in the long run she doesn't get down with this stuff could I even see a future with her anyway!?

    Number 3 sounds a bit mercenary but I'm sure I'm preaching to the choir here when laying these thoughts down as it's honest, these are things you think about.

    All I know for now is I really enjoy her company so for 5 days I will enjoy it as much as possible and if that means compromising the odd thing for a short period of time then so be it.

    CT update: will proceed early evening as >45 mins is now going to be too long to do in the mornings before I have to get where I need to get in the rhythm of doing it in the PM.
    Sean Waters likes this.

Share This Page