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Momma Liesel @ Aproned Acre

Discussion in 'My Optimal Journal' started by LieselK, Feb 9, 2018.

  1. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    Give the man one day in the sunshine and BAM!

    D worked from home half the day Mon, then Tues and today because there are so many sick people in their small office of 8. We sunned in our kinikis while we both did work on the porch and deck in the sun yesterday (he got burnt) and last night he said it was like a switch flipped. He finally found his peace with my going to Florida and decisions ahead.

    Lots of good convo in our evening light today on the deck.
  2. drezy

    drezy New Member

    He's not just your husband -- he's your sheepdog.

    Let me know if I can augment his protective/watchful eye from where I'm at

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  3. Mike David

    Mike David Same name new person

    Love love love what you done with the place. So beautiful and inspiring.
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  4. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    He may be up for it now that's come to his senses ;) He's a good one. Definitely a keeper.
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  5. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    At some point I have to go grocery shopping, but the sun keeps coming out so I just stay home.

    I got in contact with my 1st college roomie last night. She and her partner live south of Tampa around St. Pete. She does art and her partner has a food truck. Maybe she finds something that works out for me! In the meantime I've read Ari Whitten's book The Ultimate Guide to Red Light Therapy and it was fab! It cleared up so much for me and helped me sort out my confusion regarding red light and infrared. Also reading the early Ubiq blogs. My brain works SO much better with extra sleep- I can't do more than 1 night in a row of less than 8 hours. Kids are gonna be in bed soon and I plan to follow suit.

    Working on my TAN! Soaking up all the sun with wind blocking sheets and other such hacks. We're so fortunate to have a spot where we get good sun this time of year (when it's out). I'm SO thankful. I can feel the warmth on my face tonight! :) Clouds tomorrow, but sun on Monday... better buy some groceries tomorrow then!
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  6. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member


    Remembered this gem, copyright 1990, that I got way back when from my sis. I had readbit as a teen. SO interesting to see the early conversation about our need for sunlight. So much isn't new- we just understand it better now.

    "If the early bird catches the worm, a bird must know how to tell time of day."
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  7. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    I'm just angry. My hormones are not right- like zero sex drive and I'm irritable and agitated despite getting great sun these last 2 weeks. I can look back and see the seasonality of this and it just makes me mad. I've shouldered the wrong burden for a long time regarding some of these issues. It's not me! It's my fucking environment! I want to be better right now as I soak up the sun, but the reality is that I won't be "well" until June. Fuels the fire to figure out my plan, but it feels desperate and emotional today instead of factual and deliberate. Factual and deliberate is much easier to plug away with.
  8. Phosphene

    Phosphene Gold (finally)

    I don’t have that book, but remember researching a ton on the Columbia University light therapy website. Ended up buying one of those 10,000 lux fluorescent light boxes. (Where’s the face palm emoji? We need one of those.) Still have the light box—is it unethical to try selling it? Didn’t help at all and probably made things worse.

    I join you in your anger. :mad:

    How much unnecessary pain and angst could’ve been avoided by just following nature and the sun!

    Just remember though—we did survive and those experiences made us stronger and wiser. Onward and upward now—as we think so we become.

    Oh, and Happy Spring!!!!! :):):)
    Last edited: Mar 20, 2019
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  9. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    We have the Spring rains today to celebrate with :p

    I have considered trying to sell our cfls... never settled on ethics of it. They are in a box in the garage still.
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  10. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    Totally a mess today. The cough the little one gave me sucks as does his attitude these days. We napped at 10:30 this morning and I am NOT a napper. My period is due soon and I'm thinking my total despair is due to that in part. My hubby talked to his boss today about our upcoming plans (or lack of plans... ha!) Just general uncomfyness here as we wrestle through reality and come together. He has drinks out with friends tonight so he'll get some support outside of me (thank goodness!) I am stretched thin with my own stuff and advocating for some abused women these days. Necessary work- amazing in the end... but the process is a challenge. Like a very delicate dance as I regroup and advocate for me and then reach out to grab onto others who need it. Constant back and forth. But some people are worth not letting go of. Some.
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  11. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    Sun-kissed today which is nice. I'm not sleeping well- I was so anxious last night and felt like my heart was pounding all night. Not having any solid ideas for Sept is getting to me. I need to let it go for awhile and let God do His work. Clearly this isn't up to me right now. I need to spend my energy taking care of me in other ways- my sun, low emfs and CT. The things I can do right now. I pulled some weeds today and got dirty- it was so nice. The kids want me to give them a "light lesson" and a quiz on it! My efforts can go there this week. :)
  12. caroline

    caroline Moderator

    you write beautifully......your heart and soul are showing - I love it.
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  13. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    I don't really have words for the last few days. I've had my diagnosis for 6 years and just keep showing up for myself every day. I think my husband finally had to face the fact that he was tolerant of my health needs until it affected him so obviously in this last month. He flipped his lid, said awful things and consequently finally acknowledged his lack of advocacy for me. He says he will do better and he's prepared to move. I can't trust it yet, but I'm glad to have hope that I may have a true advocate in him.

    And I just wonder, if I hadn't kept showing up for me and pushing the limits, would he have ever woken up? I don't think so. He would have remained happily oblivious and I would've kept dying inside.

    Show up for yourselves y'all. We might wrestle with the truth and not want to hear it, but it always shines through. Jack displays true kindness with his words and actions instead of just being "nice". I appreciate that. You should too. "Niceness" is no help for anyone nor does it provide hope.
  14. Inger

    Inger Silver

    Do you have a high quality red light Liesel? I love how it makes me feel when sun is scarce. It is great for hormones too :) :) I use it on my ovaries, thyroid, brain, everywhere!
    Can you get oysters too?
    Wish I could send you some of my hormones.. I seem to have too many o_O :rolleyes:
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  15. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    Not yet, I want a full body one, but I am thinking maybe we just get the Fire Wave to start. I am currently sitting under my chickens' heat lamp!
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  16. Inger

    Inger Silver

    OMG.. Liesel :D chickens heat lamp... well, must be better than nothing... ;) :) (I wish I had chickens too, I just love having chickens.. my parents used to have them and I took care of them, it was so much fun! Lucky you :) )
    Just get the Firewaves to start with, if it is a money question, and later you can still get the bigger one. That is how I am going. And I am soo happy for my firewaves! Null regrets :)
    You get a pair of great blueblockers with it too for free.
    I cant afford a bigger one right now, but the firewaves helps a lot, it feels so good.
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  17. JanSz

    JanSz Gold

    I am wondering about high powered light.
    I recently got 300W. It is 2 feet (30cm) from my forehead.
    Now little skin on my forehead started peeling.
    Is that coincidence or too much red light.


  18. Lahelada

    Lahelada New Member

    Do you know the make? It might be interesting to see the frequencies.
  19. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

  20. LieselK

    LieselK Titanium Member

    Wildfires and marriage...

    I was thinking about my situation and the April Webinar. The March Q&A sparked a wildfire in my home that night. And while they are devastating, they are also necessary. Periodic fires through the redwoods in CA actually helped the trees over time and they since do controlled burns there to remove the underbrush that would eventually starve the trees if left there. If you're a hardy redwood then you survive and thrive the inevitable fires. I think marriage is like that. If you're just underbrush then you burn up so fast... the redwoods might be a little scarred for awhile (they heal) but then they'll thrive and be all the more nourished.

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