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I finally got out of Dallas. Time to heal.

Discussion in 'My Optimal Journal' started by MattD1995, May 28, 2019.

  1. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    All great points, Inger. I eat very little red meat these days for that reason. I think the carnivore community got a bit carried away with muscle meat. There are some carnivores like Frank Tufano who are beginning to speak out on YouTube against the “muscle meat only” version. I know for a fact that I have copper deficiency issues as well. I’m having another hair mineral analysis performed to determine how low I am in copper. I may begin donating blood as well. The only concern I have is that my blood volume is already very low due to POTS. Many POTS patients have found that donating blood puts them in the emergency room.
  2. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    Hepatitis C test came back negative. Guess that just leaves cirrhosis, cancer, iron overload, anemia, and fatty liver to explain why my liver is so enlarged. Any other thoughts on testing to pursue for an enlarged liver? My goal is to get a liver biopsy, but I have a feeling I’m going to have to rule out every other possible factor before insurance would even cover a biopsy.
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  3. Inger

    Inger Silver

    There is a scan they can do to check if the liver has stored too much iron, Matt.
    That would be way better than doing a biopsy.....

    You really need to talk with your doctor and tell him all you know, maybe you together can figure it out. Is he aware of iron overload in the liver? There is a procedure where they just filter out the iron and let the rest into your blood stream again, that is for people who have anemia but organs with iron overload. That would be an idea.

    Could it be that through you having that mesh in your body, toxins from the mesh have fucked up your liver? And so made it unable to clean out other things too.... like iron, environmental pollution etc?

    Frank really have some great value in many of his videos, a nice fresh breeze ;)
  4. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    Inger, I’m very interested in this scan. Do you happen to know what it is called? I think I heard Frank mention that a CT could help diagnose it, but I’m trying to avoid any constraint or due injections as they contain toxic chemicals/metals.
  5. Hey Matt, Im so sorry about whats going on for you right now. But you are not alone! I DONT think you should get the liver biopsy. If you are already having brain fog and other issues that seem like nnEMF sensitivity and STRESS (believe me stress can make you feel a million times worse!) you should continue with light/water/magnetism but give yourself some healing carbs and bitter for your liver function. I realize over the last year, having experienced some set backs of my own, is that when you are not in 100% optimal place you have to use these extra "supplements" to do better.

    Less is more. Keep it simple. Getting sunlight, grounding and drinking good quality water will not hurt you. What can you do to add? Use red light, bitters for your liver like dandelion/milk thistle, CT to your advantage. I agree with @Saichi that maybe having more seaweed is better for you than seafood. In Dallas there are Korean grocery stores. Check out H Mart for seaweed. https://www.yelp.com/biz/h-mart-carrollton-carrollton?osq=asian+grocery+stores
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  6. White potatoes and eggs do cause inflammation BTW... If you have enlarged liver maybe also limit the beef lard? How do yams, squash, make you feel? Are you eating onions and garlic, bone broth, fermented foods like saukraut, pickles and kimchi?

    What if you did oysters every other day and alternate markerel with sardines? Having seaweed with small amounts of beef for lunch with garlic, onions and bone broth in between?
  7. Inger

    Inger Silver

  8. 5G Canary

    5G Canary Gold

    Matt.... you are a warrior! I love Christine’s and Inger’s advice here ^^^

    It seems like you want doctors to heal you? “You” need to heal “You.” You are not separate from nature....you are nature. Things in nature heal themselves when they are given the right environment. While reaching a diagnosis gives you validation that all of “This” isn’t in your head....the diagnosis isn’t a cure and in some cases can point you down the wrong path.

    Your symptoms and body are SCREAMING it’s the environment. You definitely sound EHS. If you are following Jack’s protocols in a bad environment it can actually cause more problems and deficiencies. Which is why he always emphasizes the environment first... “you will never get better in the same environment that you got sick in.” Examples, if you are seeing the sunrise outside in a direct line of a cell tower for instance, sleeping next to bad wiring in the wall or unknowingly have lead in your drinking water. And if your area is 5G... nothing will help other than moving.

    The more Doctor visits, X-rays and nnEMF’s are only making everything exponentially worse. NnEMF’s steal your water and your oxygen and fill you with air.... that clouds your thinking.

    The body is extremely smart and it knows what it needs to get healthy... you need to start listening to your intuition. Change your thinking to create a different reality. Visualize what you really want and start doing one thing each day to get closer to it. It’s not going to be easy but the best things in life are worth the effort.

    If Mexico is your dream or where you intuition is leading you.... don’t settle for less. Start by private messaging Sean or Lloyd. We are all here on this forum to help guide, educate and support one another. Start creating your circle....

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  9. Novah

    Novah Gold

    Sorry to hear you’re struggling :-(

    Re: your low EMF environment this past summer... Did you measure it with meters and if so, which ones? Did you check electrical/magnetic/RF etc?

    If you didn’t measure it with decent meters, then you don’t know if it was actually low.

    Odessa is inland, so maybe seriously consider moving to the beach. That way you get sun, sand and ocean which are a pretty great combination.

    And if you need to stay where you are, then try to get a professional in to measure your environment.

    If you have POTS, the Yucatan may not be the best spot for you.

  10. Saichi

    Saichi New Member

    Yes which RF meter are you using and what's the highest peak readings you get measuring all axes in your sleeping area?

    I was shocked not too long ago when my Trifield was showing peak of only 60 in one of my living spaces I partially shielded only to find my Safe and Sound revealed peaks of 900!
  11. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    Why would the Yucatan be bad for POTS? I think increased magnetism might be just what I need...
  12. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    Just got fired from my job yesterday. First time I've ever been fired. My employer provided me no reason. I'm taking this as an opportunity between jobs to spend a few weeks simply sitting at my local park and taking in the Texas sun and grounding.

    It's odd. Despite all the chaos that accompanies hitting rock bottom, it brings with it a certain clarity. When you run out of options, it forces you to reevaluate everything about your life in an effort to conserve what energy/resources you have left. Over the past few years, I've accumulated several bad habits that have been draining me of energy. I've invested way to much money and time into food rather than light and environment. I've allowed my personal health issues to warp my view of life ultimately turning me into a cynical, angry fuck. I'm blessed to have some great people in my life, but I've made little to no effort to maintain or grow my relationships with those people. If I'm being honest, I've been living as an energy vampire. The type of person I love to rant about.

    I've been perusing Sean Watter's journal a lot lately. The insight in many of his posts really hits a nerve with me. In Sean's journal, I stumbled across these quotes by Jack,

    "Neuroscientists who study AWE define it as the emotion we feel in response to something vast that defies our existing frame of reference in one area or another and leads us to change our perception of that frame of reference.

    This change is what builds an open mind ready to be lit...........

    AWE makes us small.........in the universe and we become forced to realize we are connected to a larger fabric and that fabric we need explore.

    One important distinction between awe and other emotions (like inspiration or surprise) is that awe makes us feel small — or feel a sense of “self-diminishment” in science-speak. And that’s good for us in a nonlinear counterintuitive way.

    We spend a lot of our time thinking about what’s going on in our world and what’s affecting us directly. Sensing and feeling Awe in our environment changes that, making us see ourselves as a small piece of something larger. This is why I elevated friends to number 2 Sean. You met some of my AWEsome crew.

    Feeling small makes us feel humbled (thereby lessening selfish tendencies like entitlement, arrogance, and narcissism). And feeling small and humbled makes us want to engage with others and feel more connected to others.

    Fundamentally, awe is about novelty and vastness. Physical space might create that vastness, as can someone’s talent or someone’s goodness, or their depravity and how they used it as fuel to make something awesome of their lives.

    Awe comes in many forms. It is our job to find as many as we can."

    As I look back, I realize that diet and supplements have never inspired that awe within me. What has?

    - Morning sun
    - Cold thermogenesis
    - Music
    - Spending time with good people
    - Time in nature

    Oh, and Kava. I'm not generally a substance user, but Kava is something that has reignited the awe factor for me as well. It affects the dopamine and GABA receptors. It's an empathogen. It gives me a sense of peace and calmness very similar to the sun.

    I spent the first half of today searching for jobs online. I could feel the panic rising. Around 3, I went outside and sat in the afternoon sun and felt a wave of calm wash over. It's those moments that help draw my focus back and help declutter my mind. Excessive supplements, chasing obscure diagnoses, and continued doctors appointments have to go. Doctors haven't done anything for me but push more drugs. Only I can fix this shit.
  13. Daulatwant

    Daulatwant Kipras

    I will also start loosing my shit while looking at job listings. Maybe print out the job listings and look at them while in the sun, haha. I feel I can't use this approach to look for a job anymore. There is a better way. Instead of connecting to the global network(internet). Maybe go get connected to your local network of people(real life) and instead of looking for a job, put yourself out there and let people come to you with offers for YOU specifically and not anybody else.

    Here watch this:

    Several years ago I hitchhiked to Italy, and while taking a ride with an Italian who didn't speak any language I knew. He called up his girlfriend who was a translator and she translated for us. Eventually he said her company was looking for Russian translators and that I could try going for it, but I doubted my Russian abilities at the time and had a different goals in mind. If you go out there and share your story with people you'll find something for sure.
    Last edited: Jan 27, 2020
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  14. drezy

    drezy New Member

    Don't forget to consider:
    • What type of work you've done that was so engaging the hours simply melted away?
    • Pro bono work in that field in order to get yourself up to pace and build a portfolio (and maybe a direct no resume needed future position for yourself or small business beginnings) This is what I'm currently spending time doing.
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  15. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    I've never performed a type of work like that. As I don't have a degree and I'm physically limited, I unfortunately don't have many options.
  16. drezy

    drezy New Member

    I'd encourage you to keep thinking about it.
    Don't discount activities that you enjoy as potentially being useful as well.

    Hell, there are people that get paid money to watch porn for court cases and research.

    Conventional options may be limited, but it's worth not limiting the search space to conventional options.
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  17. caroline

    caroline Moderator

    well said Dan. There re all kinds of weird and wonderful and non traditional jobs out there - expand your thinking, expand your horizons.

    Volunteer at a shelter or something similar, help others and, in turn, help yourself.
  18. 5G Canary

    5G Canary Gold

    Matt... Sorry to hear about the loss of your job. Everything happens for a reason. Trust the Universe and listen to the signs. Maybe the job was in a bad environment? This break gives you an opportunity to breath deeply and find your purpose... The Universe has great things in store for you.... let it continue to guide you. Follow your intuition... the world is your oyster!

    You seem smart and well educated... maybe go back and get your degree, or learn a specialty trade. Life needs purpose. When we are sick and in a bad environment it requires finding energy.... we are the weak link in the circle of six but only in energy. We need energy and need to receive it from healthy sources. Examples- The sun, healthy people/children, nature, plants and animals. Try and find temporary work with these in mind, at least until you find your purpose/what brings you joy while building your redox back up.

    Examples would be working as a life guard, swim instructor, coach children’s sports, gardener/lawn service, State Park employee, outdoor boot camp, dog walker/sitter, child care or tutor children.You could turn any of those into your own business and set your own schedule. Some pay extremely well too. We used to pay $30 an hour for our children’s tutor, $50-$100 a night for dog sitting, $20-$40 per swim lessons, and we currently pay $75 a week for yard service. My daughters pay someone $10 a day to walk their dogs for 30min. You said you like music so maybe learn/teach something like piano or guitar. Think outside the box and think about what makes you happy.

    Maybe volunteer to coach little league football. Network and meet the parents and most will gladly pay for additional help or tutoring.

    There are also companies that will train you and send you to healthy places all over the world. My niece is your age and actually got her degree from Berkeley but decided she didn’t want to live on the hamster wheel. She got a temporary job with... https://www.wildernessadventures.com/ She got paid to live on the beach in Costa Rica helping teens and saving turtles. I think the Universe saved her from the damage of 4 years of college at Berkeley. She got her redox back without even realizing it.


    She is a free spirit And follows her intuition. She comes from the same crappy genes as myself. Recently she saved a little money and went to New Zealand, bought a shit car and, lived in it until she found work with a place to live. She is still there now- got licensed as a CrossFit instructor and works tutoring children. She is living large... maybe not financially but definitely in life. Very curious and lives in awe!

    People like you and I may be the weak link in the circle but never forget this is only in energy until we rebuild our redox and never, in what we can also give and contribute in other ways to all.

    I like this quote....”There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.”

    You’re a warrior... you got this!
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  19. MattD1995

    MattD1995 Gold

    That's fantastic about your niece. She looks very happy. My redox is bad enough that I'm beginning to realize a future move is inevitable. Texas itself sits at a decent latitude. It's just the EMF pollution that makes Dallas so bad. My plan is to get out of the city as soon as possible. Florida would be my dream, but that won't be happening anytime soon financially.

    I actually used to be a lifeguard back in high school for 3 years. I just applied 2 days ago for a lifeguarding position at my local gym. It's a low-stress, easy job. Not amazing pay, but it will cover my basic bills as I continue on my healing journey. I really don't need much money right now. Just enough to cover gas, insurance, and food. I'm also picking up odd jobs with connections that I made from my old job. Made $200 this weekend at a trade show just running a booth and talking to people. My uncle was kind enough to recommend me to a local cement company. The pay is pretty decent considering I don't have a degree, and the job has great benefits. I'll just have to get my CDL class B.

    The plan right now:

    - Pick up lifeguarding again for 2-3 months.
    - Spend a LOT more time outside since I'm working so little now. I have a beautiful park near my house with a small lake and lots of fresh air and open space.
    - Study for my class B cdl so I can get started with this cement company.
    - Continue figuring out what the hell is wrong with my enlarged liver.

    My CT scan came back showing "no lymphadenopathy", so it seems unlikely that I have lymphoma. My friend who is a radiologist suggested iron overload as a cause for my enlarged liver. I began reading and stumbled across this bit of info from the American Hemochromatosis Society's website:

    "Warning: The doctors on the Board of Directors of The American Hemochromatosis Society state that transferrin saturation percentage greater than 40% and serum ferritin greater than 150ng/mL could indicate clinical iron overload/iron storage in the body and treatment with phlebotomy (bloodletting) should be considered regardless of DNA test results. This means that patients' treatment should not be based on genetic test results alone whether positive or negative. The DNA test is a powerful tool to help us find people at risk; 85-98% of patients with clinical iron overload have the hemochromatosis mutations, however, the most important point to remember is that excess iron needs to be evaluated and treated. William Crosby, MD, (see photo above) the late well known hemochromatosis physician and researcher, declared that if a patient has demonstrated excess iron then they are in danger of organ damage and premature death. Patients should be aggressively (usual rate is weekly or twice weekly depending on the stage of the disease) treated with phlebotomy (bloodletting identical to blood donation) for excess iron! Treatment frequency can be adjusted for individual patients with special circumstances (elderly, other medical problems, etc.) See AHS guidelines"


    My ferritin is chronically in the 200s, my saturation is chronically above 40%, and my TIBC is also low meaning my body does not want any more iron. I sent this information to my primary doctor and my friend who is a radiologist. BOTH of them agreed that, in context of my symptoms and my severely enlarged liver, I need to get tested for iron overload. The best option is something called a Ferri Scan. It's a special type of MRI that can assess the total iron content of the liver. I'm meeting with my hematologist this next Wednesday.

    It's strange. The few days that I do feel better happen to be days when I'm getting blood drawn. I never made the connection until now. I think iron overload could be a huge issue for me. My iron labs from March 2018 showed 75% IRON SATURATION which is hemochromatosis range. In context of my joint pain, fatigue, brain fog, and enlarged liver (all iron overload/hemochromatosis symptoms), this is a huge development for me.

    I'm hopeful that my doctor will prescribe some phlebotomies as well as a Ferri Scan to assess my total liver iron content.

    On a final note, I've been finding copper supplementation extremely helpful in controlling my histamine reactions. I received the results back from a hair mineral analysis last week. Low and behold, I'm low in copper. It has definitely reduced my histamine symptoms noticeably.
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  20. Hey Matt, glad you’re trying to calm down. This has helped me a lot. I can’t give any medical advice but don’t discount yourself because you don’t have a degree, be happy you haven’t accrued stupid student debt. A degree doesn’t mean dick unless you’re wanting to be a doctor or some other specialty. You can always say you just need a few more credits to finish. No one checks and in my opinion, most people with shit degrees are worse off because they think they are worth more and don’t need to hustle or start at the bottom. You can learn anything you want without paying an institution to issue you credits. It may seem that you got cheated out of a part of your youth, but when you get past this, you will be a bigger person. Just my two cents. GooD luck.

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