Hof had ecoli injected into his bloodstream, of course he's adapted, with no ill effects.

I swam in almost a foot of runoff foam for weeks, water was barely cold too only 55 deg, no health problems throughout.

 

Elevation elevates

 

... and after all that... after it was all said and done... the pain.. the darkness.. the jealousy, rage, and hatred.... all that was left was a simple choice ... a choice to move towards the light or to not...to, inspite of it all, choose positivity, gratitude, kindness, loyalty, respect... and light.

And so he was left with only one thought:

“What if I fail... oh, but darling... what if you fly...”

 

SLEEP LOG: 9pm to 5am (7 hours)

Its been a different morning experiencing life.. new autumn leafs are dropping..

I resisted the urge to jump on the forum.. and instead just got my house in order first..

I brushed my teeth.
I showered.
I cooked some breakfast for sunrise.
I set out to do 25 pushups under my red light panel. And did.
And the most bizarre thing of all, I peacefully started tidying up my place. Garbage. Clothes. A leaf that was on the kitchen floor.

Something worthy of note.. I realized my control over carbs is extremely under control these days. I'm on top of the carbs, and it's no longer on top of me. The only objective answer I have for this is that I started wearing RaOptic glasses consistently, and cut all the artificial light (most) when at home...

j

 

And you’re sleeping well in a mint environment. That’s huge!

 

Brain upgrade time

 

You really should stop wearing nighttime's during the day, talk about circadian mismatch on steroids.

 

Thanks

 

are you calling me.....

 

SLeep Log:

9pm to 530am (8.5hours)

I actually have nothing I really need to write about.

~PLUR~

 

We are proud individuals living on the city
But the flames couldn't go much higher
We find gods and religions to
To paint us with salvation
But no one
No nobody
Can give you the power
To rise over love
And over hate
Through this iron sky
That's fast becoming our minds
Over fear and into freedom
Oh, that's life
Left dripping down the walls
Of a dream that cannot breathe
In this harsh reality
Mass confusion spoon fed to the blind
Serves now to define our cold society
From which we'll rise over love
Over hate
From this iron sky
That's fast becoming our minds
Over fear and into freedom
You just got to hold on!
You just got to hold on!
Oh oh oh oh
(To those who can hear me, I say, do not despair
The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed
The bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress
The hate of men will pass, and dictators die
And the power they took from the people will return to the people
And so long as men die, liberty will never perish
Don't give yourselves to these unnatural men
Machine men with machine minds and machine hearts!
You are not machines, you are not cattle, you are men!
You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful
To make this life a wonderful adventure
Let us use that power!
Let us all unite!)
And we'll rise over love
And over hate
Through this iron sky
That's fast becoming our minds
Over fear
And into freedom
Into freedom!
From which we'll rise over love
And over hate
Through this iron sky
That's fast becoming our minds
Over fear and into freedom
Freedom!
Oh, from which we'll rise over love
And over hate
Through this iron sky
That's fast becoming our minds
Over fear and into freedom
Freedom!
Freedom!
Rain on me!
Rain on me!

 

Forgot about this guy. Thanks!

Love the well-placed horns.

 

I find myself in a new place lately...

I don’t really have anything I need or want to write about... and I’m not sure How to feel about it...

I think Starting tomorrow I am ready to begin “goal setting” ... or rather... intentional, consistent, reliable, discomfort....

 

https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=487718782067160

Fame is a fascination journey of destruction...

https://www.truthdig.com/articles/the-man-in-the-mirror/

Chris hedges is an amazingly lucid observer of society...

 

This is a good sign, I think ~ that you are achieving more inner peace and balance. I'm happy for you.

 

Thankyou @Jenelle

 

A Mosaic of Emotions, Thoughts, Happenings

people watching in a coffee shop
everyone is getting a variation of chai, and its HILARIOUS
singing party. beautiful voices. open to the universe. right space of mind. engaging in dinner talk, actually.
complacency. the fallacy of disconnecting from the hydrant that waters your plant when the plant grows.
the drive home of rejection.

j

 

Today I restarted my Music lesson with my piano teacher (my vocal coaches partner). I went in expecting to resume things as normal and explore playing with the Piano. What I ended up getting was another deep profound dose of humanity in front of me.

She wasn’t expecting what to transpired, transpire. But it did.

Basically, seeing me again and beginning this journey together brought up many questions unresolved about how I abruptly ended the relationship with her and my vocal coach.. not dismilar to what I did to someone I hold very close to me on this forum...

She got Teary.. emotional. She said her and her Partner genuinely cared for me, then, and now. And her guard is up as I enter into their atmosphere again after an extended period off. She professed she is protective of her partner.. and whether I will hurt him again. Am I here to stay this time?

... I broke down and got emotional as well, teary as well. I took her through why I did the things I did back then.. and the journey Of further growth have been on now since meeting Jk.. and the much needed time away from the studio I needed.

She said she doesn’t want me to feel any guilt or that there needs to be any “proving of myself.” She also understood I needed to do what I did for my own journey ..

I recognized though.. that there are side effects to ones actions.. and impact you have on the lives of others.

What I took away most deeply however.. was an experience of a deeply caring, beautiful woman sitting Across from me..who simply cared for me for who I am as a human being when it was all said and done.. and one that was fighting off emotions that even surprised her.. emotion and.. I want to say a form of pain.. that was the direct result of my actions in the past to seize the “ relationship.”

That fucked me up emotionally..I cried. It felt good. But I knew there was still a gap that only time would mend.

I maintained I am different now. And I am. For two simple reasons.. 1. I am now aware of my emotions.. and 2. I am not afraid anymore to commicate those emotions, however negative they may be.

We cried it out and then we went on with the piano lesson... we hugged then parted ways. Her to her second job. I see her partner in a couple hours.

Love you, JW and TM
J

 

Keep going Jason! Love how you’re taking care of yourself and sill finding time to do something you adore—music with real people. What else to you like and dislike about the new place?

 

Not having someone to share it with